There may be things that may be coming up for you that you may not even realize could be holding you back from reconnecting to your sexuality such as.
- Confusion
- Difficulty sleeping
- Headaches
- Increasing fears
- Overeating
- Difficulty concentrating
- Unexplained emotional outbursts
- Panic attacks/anxiety/depression
- Palpitations
All of these things may come up before, after and/or during sexual activity. I want you to know that this is completely normal and that you are just experiencing some of the effects of the trauma. It can be hard but really helpful to name these things; facing them can allow you to move through them.
The No.1 thing I always tell people is before you start to re-engage in sexual activities with a partner, you have to reclaim your sexuality and the best way to reconnect with it is MASTURBATION!! My favorite thing is telling someone to take themselves on a date.
Have a date night with yourself. You can go out to dinner, take yourself to a movie, or go dancing. Do what makes you happy. Or, you can get straight to the point. Set your bedroom up the way you like it. If that means specific toys, oils, lubes, music, snacks or whatever you need for you, do that!
Then, just explore your body. Try things you used to like. You may not like them anymore, so try new things that you thought about doing. You may find you also do not like those. The point of all of this is to explore your own body and find what brings you pleasure. You can even create a list of things that you really enjoy and things you would like to try. This "try list" can be dependent on the relationship and connection you have with the person you might try them with.
